Thankfulness: Fail.

My experiment failed. On day 2 I thought, "I'll do 2 tomorrow." On Day 3 I though, "It has been a rough day and I need to prepare for weekend company, this can wait." Thankfulness experiment: fail.

I have had the worst week at my job since moving here and beginning work. It has been nothing short of terrible. The anxiety, frustration, and anger float around the office & threaten to attach themselves to anything that stands still. I was trying to combat it in a very "positive psychology" manner, but to be honest, my heart just wasn't in the right space for that. I am angry that people act this way. I try to do yoga and let go of my anger, but I am frustrated that even as I work to remain calm people will continue to hurl anger and frustration toward me in an abusive fashion and I will have to take it like a grown-up.

Mostly it makes me sad, because I typically love my work.

I guess I have nothing more to say. I don't want my blog to become a place where I bitch about everything, because I know that isn't healthy. But I have found that the positive psych thing felt fake this week. Maybe I'll give it a run another time.